Yeah I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knocked down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
Every single fucking day
I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster
Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is, oh, where the fuck is your god now?
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
I'm a popular, popular monster | 每天失神般醒来, 我甚至不知道我能否坦言,淦!长痛不如短痛。 每个人都告诉我这只是一个阶段, 但是我不清楚他们所言真伪,安然无恙才是我想要的,
在抑郁中挣扎,答案始终被迷雾笼罩 我感受到的是创伤后应激障碍亦或者是我强忍怒气? 我的医生告诉我这只是一个阶段 这算什么阶段?我只想要无恙,好吗?!
我挣扎着逃离荒唐世界, 但是我内心愤怒的野兽始终阻止着我。 泯灭,窒息,它让我分崩离析! 我在即将崩溃之际还在寻找着希望, 骗子,下贱!我是无神主义者!! 我是被全城通缉的怪物, 鱼惊鸟散, 在堕落中坠入爱河。 我是被世界诅咒的恶魔!
我犹如笼中之鸟无处可逃, 不管我克服多少困难,总会有新的困难出现。 在与另一个我的死亡赛跑中,争取稳中求胜。 但是,如果我不放下我的过去的话,我该如何胜出? 天啊,大敌临城。我浪费的每一秒, 就是我走向深渊的第二秒。 我的心理医生告诉我,我正在经历一个阶段, 去你的,我要摆脱荒谬,我要好好活着!
肮脏老贼,我已经盯上你了! 我必须要改变,因为失去的东西不会再回来, 但是如果我当初撒谎了呢?告诉你我一切安好。 每一天! 我都感觉到我离坟墓越来越近,我快疯了! 我再一次在回家的车上睡着了, 车祸只为感觉自己还活着。 泯灭,窒息,它让我分崩离析!
我在即将疯狂之际还在寻找出路, 卑鄙,伪君子,我是无神主义者!! 我是众所周知的怪物, 鱼溃鸟离, 在堕落中坠入爱河。 我是为世人所恨的怪物,
来!面对我!
我们已经厌倦了去追寻答案, 向根本不存在的上帝祈祷, 在指路明灯之前寻找答案? 我的问题是,你那该死的上帝在哪里?!
我在即将疯狂之际还在寻找出路, 小人,卑劣!我是无神主义者!! 我是众所周知的怪物, 支离破碎, 在堕落中坠入爱河。 我是为世人所恨的怪物,
卑鄙,伪君子,我是无神主义者!! 我是为世人所恨的怪物。 |